Okay so I’ve been talking about some changes I’m making and how I’m excited to share them. Well, I’m finally ready to share them with y’all. As most of you know I’ve been going to school to become a Certified Medical Coder and Biller. Mostly to become a coder because I’m better at that than as a biller. But earlier this year, the government made some changes that affected my choice in career. So it’s been a really difficult thing for me to deal with knowing that my career was going to be on delay until further notice but I was still going into debt.
What some of you don’t know is that I took a job since I started running out of money to get the bills paid. It’s nothing glamorous at all and not really worth sharing. I decided with school schedule and the fact that I wanted to still be home during the days and available to my kids that I would work graveyard. It’s actually been harder on my schedule and I’m probably less available than if I worked during the day.
As all of you have probably seen I decided to bite the bullet earlier this year and become a Beachbody Coach. I wanted to hold myself accountable and lose all this unneeded weight and get off all my medications that I was on due to a my previous stressful job. Additionally I decided to start running again and begin training for a half marathon.
SO now onto the big changes. This year has been quite the journey for me and as I go along I realize that what is most important is doing what makes you happy. If you continue to do what you feel you must rather than what you heart knows you want, it will affect all areas of your life. The biggest example of this is when I finally chose to throw in the towel and quit my job of 7+ years. I had spent the last 3-4 years allowing the place to toxify my entire life. To the point where it consumed every single part of my life and I lived, breathed and talked nonstop about how unhappy I was about it. Furthermore I put my all into the place and then lots more. Well the stress level had increased so much that my health started going downhill not in the small little ways it had been but in major ways. So it was time to leave and that was a great long time coming choice. The reason I decided to go back to school to become a medical biller and coder was due to continued frustration at my current workplace. I was tired of being continuously asked to be involved and put in additional effort and time but for free and without the perks that I saw others get who did far less. So I wanted an out and chose this path because it was that out and I knew that it would help me in daily health struggles and also with my future goal. So below are the following changes I have made in the last week:
1. Still a Beachbody Coach but I’ve been failing at it and more than anything failing at myself. I accomplished the goal of getting off all my medications but I’m still so far from my personal health goals and that’s my fault. So I’m putting my whole heart into fully succeeding at getting my health back.
2. I’m making it a personal mission to help stop the disease known as Diabetes that affects so many of my Native Brother and Sisters. My steps in this endeavor will be small but they will be mighty because it’s all I know how to do. But I’m no longer going to sit idly by and watch so many people be affected by it. I’m thankful for Beachbody and the amazing people I’ve met because I know that with it, it will make this goal doable.
3. I’m currently actively looking for another job and making it a day job. It will not be my future but it will get the bills paid.
4. I’ve decided, after much thought and consideration, to be done with school. This is my last attempt at going back and I promise that I will not go back to school unless it’s to work towards my desire. I’ve unenrolled and it’s actually been a huge relief. 3rd time is not the charm unless you’re doing it to work towards what you love.
5. My final change and one that has been a personal dream of mine that I’ve shared but never really worked towards is this.. I’m going to write. I’m going to do so in many small ways and I’m going to focus on my blog that I love to spend so much time on but haven’t been able to lately. This blog will focus on areas of my life and not just my health path. But I’m not talking about just blogging, I’m going to write a book. I’ve had an idea for years about a book that I have yet to see and I’m going to just do it. I will not have a specific genre that I write about but I will just write what intrigues me and hope that it intrigues others. Some of you mentioned that you would read my stuff if I actually wrote and I intend to take you up on that offer because I’m going to need some beta readers. I’m in character development stages right now and I’m giddy.
People, we’re put on this planet for a reason, while it may take us a long time to figure out that reason it’s importaint to remember one thing. Happiness is the most important thing you can achieve and continue to strive towards every day of your life. Rather than choosing to walk the path of “just getting it done one miserable step at a time” choose to walk the path that might be harder both physically, mentally, and emotionally but most rewarding. What makes you happy and why does it make you happy? Does your happiness impact anyone else or just yourself? Do you know your bliss and are you working towards it everyday?
Well I have known my bliss for many years but never really believed that I could have it. But that is no longer the case my friends. I hope you follow me on this journey of mine. It’s going to be full of ups and downs but what’s a ride if it isn’t full of ups and downs? Boring! That’s what it is.
Nella
My Journey.. 